Saturday, November 12, 2005

My Last Entry

All, it's been a wonderful few months of sharing. However, this blog has also become a source of conflict and I have decided to discontinue it. Thanks for sharing the hardest few months in Tokyo with me.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Horror Of Horrors

Just realized how horrible I look with spectacles. That's me, getting ready for bed. In a bathrobe cos the weather's getting cold. Sleeping in it tonight.


Monday, November 07, 2005

Updates

I am feeling much better, sleeping and eating better. But... I can't sleep now and that's why I'm online blogging!

Have come to crossroads and have made certain decisions that call for a major change-cum-reshuffle of my life plans/goals.

I cooked again today. Porridge, Bovril and karaage chicken (bought from Sunkus). Nice. I have also managed to find black sesame ice-cream. Bought 2 cups. It's Haagen Daz and is available for this period only. Also bought black sesame pudding. Probably my breakfast tomorrow? I will probably try black sesame mousse before I leave Tokyo. Heard they sell it at Shinjuku at the Gap building.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Fever

Yet again... Feeling all weak and heavy-headed.

I hate people who treat my parents bad. They are the best parents in the world. Always giving moral support in good times and bad.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

1 Month

I trust you.

We'll talk about it face-to-face in a month's time.

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Another Wish

I wish I never made this decision to come to Japan. It is really damaging to my relationship with my boyfriend. Talked to my dad about it and he said that long distance can never work in the long run. This relationship is too important to me.

Ive deicded that I will quit within this month. My dad says he will he support my decision even if I go in Monday and quit.

I Wish...

To have a very happy Christmas for 2005.

1997: Supposed to spend with SDH but he left me shortly before the 25th - spent the day in bed sleeping, just too depressed to get up
1998: With the Church, just after OBS, still thinking alot about Christmas '97
1999: Spent with Shups! cell, sweet beginnings with JT which eventually ended ugly
2000: 1st Christmas with R but something unhappy happened - he sort of accused me of enjoying being taken advantage of by TC
2001: Miscommunication and dinner at Alkaff Mansion became a very unhappy affair
2002: Christmas with my family in Washington D.C - we drove down from the ski resort that day, back to my sis' and bf's apartment
2003: Cheesecake cafe disaster happened - the ex and would-be boyfriend met
2004: Just returned from Korea - relationship hitting a rough patch

Christmas is my favourite time of the year. I always look forward to it after June passes. Found this really cute pic online.

Friday, October 28, 2005

Encouraging

Sweet...



MYSTERY SOLVED!

Well, hopefully anyway. Remember I was talking about my P/L some time back, since then I have been cracking my head everyday, exploring all possibilities but not the stock dividends one though I have been thinking of that for some time.

Stock dividends come at 0 so they have no notional. But that doesn't mean they don't have a local currency balance. But we hedge them based on notional. Anyway to cut a long story short, I worked out my theory on a spreadsheet and presented my case to my manager. At first she tried to argue her way and I presented mine. Her idea is based on no notional.

Notional = stock cost x quantity = 0 so doesn't change notional amount hedged originally on the original stocks acquired at a cost.

But my idea is based on TWD balances.

Balance = stock quantity x close-out price (since they came in at 0) = realized TWD balance.

But the things is we won't know the TWD amount to sell out until it becomes realized.

The swap hedge is in USD and is fixed at a certain FX rate on close out. The TWD balance is still being revalued everyday. As we have been getting more stock dividends, the FX impact is great, especially since the TWD has weakened significantly in the last couple of months.

I proposed the idea of the swaps having a FX fixing gain or loss, which we are not taking into account in our reconciliation.

Anyway, she seemed to buy my story at least for now cos I actually justified and substantiated my break with workings and the argument presented above.

Damn... FX can be so easy, but can also complicate matters. I know my arguments seem straightforward but trust me, it is not so when you are in it. It took me a couple of months just to come up with this simple theory, which I hope with all my heart is not wrong.

By the way, she just told me I need to have another year-end review with her and set my goals again... And I am supposed to outline my achievements.